Tails or Tales…

THINGS TO SAY WHEN STRESSED!

1. "Okay, okay! I take it back. Unfuck you"
2. "You say I’m a bitch like it’s a bad thing"
3. "Well this day was a total waste of make-up"
4. "Well aren’t we a bloody ray of sunshine?"
5. "Don’t bother me, I’m living happily ever after."
6. "Do I look like a people person?"
7. "This isn’t an office. It’s hell with fluorescent lighting"
8. "I started out with nothing and still have most of it left"
9. "Therapy is expensive. Popping bubble wrap is cheap. You choose"
10. "Why don’t you try practicing random acts of intelligence and senseless acts of self-control?"
11. "I’m not crazy. I’ve been in a very bad mood for 30 years."
12. "Sarcasm is just one more service I offer."
13. "Do they ever shut up on your planet?"
14. "I’m not your type. I’m not inflatable"
15. "Stress is when you wake up screaming and you realize you haven’t  gone  to sleep yet"
16. "Back off!! You’re standing in my aura."
17. "Don’t worry. I forgot your name too."
18. "I work 45 hours a week to be this poor."
19. "Not all people are annoying. Some are dead."
20. "Wait…I’m trying to imagine you with a personality"
21. "Chaos, panic and disorder … my work here is done."
22. "Ambivalent? Well yes and no."
23. "You look like shit. Is that the style now?"
24. "Earth is full. Go home."
25. "Aw, did I step on your poor little bitty ego?"
26. "I’m not tense, just terribly, terribly alert."
27. "A hard-on doesn’t count as personal growth."
28. "You are depriving some village of an idiot."
29. "If assholes could fly, this place would be a airport"

perhaps its not so wise as to post this here.. but u see.. this is MY FUCKING BLOG, and i don’t care who reads it or say what. this is my space to let out what i wanna say and whom i want to say it to.

i don’t expect any feedback if there isn’t any.. and those with ill thoughts and comments, please shut your trap

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some people have a habit of talking too much.. talking is fine, but when you talk too much, you tend to say the wrong thing, or send out the wrong message, or better still, confuse the person that you are trying to reach out to.

is there a difference between gossiping and talking? there’s a fine line.. entirely depending on your intentions. i like to gossip i also like talking but what are my intentions?

thing is, i’m a pretty frank and honest person. and i sometimes do not have tact. people may misjudge me by the way that i talk and act.

the most favourite topic of all that is widely spoken by all is about relationships. ppl just love to talk about others and gossip with the latest rumors going around town.

but what people fail to realise that their actions have consequences. just like me realising that what i write here will have consequences too. but thing is, i honor the truth about what i say, and will not say it unless its true, or at the very least, have a disclaimer to what i say lar. ie i don’t know if this is true, mayb u might wanna check it out later, but………

u see, i have been a victim of gossip and rumor once, a long time ago.. ppl do not know how to keep their traps shut! they go around spreading some rumor about my relationship with my ex, and can gaily say that i said it.

do tell me, which fucking ear heard my voice saying those words, and which fucking eye read my lips saying those words?

unfortunately the damage has been done and some images were broken or torn.

what is fortunate though, is that the ‘victims’ of these rumor and gossip mongers are strong and hold true to their own words and actions. they know what is right, and need not depend anyone or themselves. fortunately, there are the closest friends that support the truth from them.

it doesn’t matter who got back together with who, it doesn’t matter who broke up with who, it doesn’t matter who proposed to who, it doesn’t matter who ’stole’ from who, it doesn’t matter who is together with who.

then again, there’s the other side of the story for some others.. some couples fail because supposedly rumors and gossip ruined their relationship. for goodness sake, does it really matter what others say about you? what is more important is that you both are true to one another and have trust with each other. if it waivers, fix it! ensure that that those rumors and gossips are not bloody true.

if you do break up / divorce because of some rumor or gossip, then its not the rumor or gossip that started it in the first place. it would definitely be something that you have done or reacted to which caused that particular rumor to be spreaded in the first place.

for all you rumor and gossip mongers, don’t misinterpret what is said or done, don’t misconstrue the meaning and intentions set by others.

is it me, or has time finally caught up? am i not just 25, just beginning to explore the world, just learning that there is more to money, just moving along nicely with my career?

this year, i’ve attended and will be attending 3 of my closests’ friends weddings.. i’m not complaining or even asking "when’s my turn?" cause i’m definitely not ready to take that plunge..

the plunge that u take when u make those vows of marriage, is like jumping off a cliff with a handglider.. and its not all smooth sailing or gliding.

marriage is a vow taken between two kindred spirits who not only love and care for each other, but most importantly, trust, respect and honor one another.

imagine, just as u jump off the cliff and catching the wind beneath, ur gliding together smoothly, hand in hand, and the view is absolutely gorgeous! the thrill of being in the air, the breath of fresh air, and weaving thru the hills and mountains with flair.. it is the beginning of a beautiful partnership.

and then u start losing wind, both of you start bickering of whether to feather right or left. and because of that, u start losing altitude too! you start falling a.. both of you panic.

there’s only two ways here..

its either you fall, crash and burn.. or realise that the only way for you to continue flying is to work together. sometimes to the right, sometimes to the left, but always working together.

one day, you realise that you want to start a family or you accidentally realise that you are about to have a family. the children that you bear is the parachute that you wearing..

losing wind happens everyday. when u realise that there is more to a marriage than just being together. there is the trust, respect and honor that must be kept. hence the vows, for better or for worst, in sickness and in health, till death do us part, that you promise to love one another.

creating that wind that helps you to fly, is like rekindling the love that the two of u share.. some times low, some times high… as long as it keeps you in the air.

there is no recipe for a perfect flight or a perfect marriage. there is no telling when you will tear the glider in half.

to my dearest friends who have gotten married and are getting married : when you have taken those vows, realise that it is no longer a game of love, but a pledge of a lifelong commitment to one another.

i pray that you will stick together through thick and thin, and that you will always find that wind and continue soaring through the skies.

love,

li-ann

prologue

something unexpected has happened in my life. what they say is true, when u least expect it, that’s when it hits u and it’ll affect u in a major way..

for a long time now, i’ve been flinging around, not taking anything seriously. no commitments. no attachments.. it was fun, and yet it was also eating me up emotionally.

chapter 1

i was seeing someone for about 2 months or so.. what i like to call a closed door affair. when seen outside, we’re just friends, and ppl don’t know we’re together, but behind closed doors, we’re a couple, and its not just shags.. but it was a non-attached relationship, one that we can leave whenever.. and we were just that..

chapter 2

one nite, at a gathering, something else happen though.. we were all at bangkok jazz dancing drinking and basically just having a good time. after which, 4 of us proceeded to a friend’s house to continue drinking and havin fun.. the 2 hosts knocked out, he and i looked at each other and wonder how we’re getting out of our friend’s house.. so we slept on the sofa instead..

on one corner each.. we were both freezing to the air con.. the wind was blowing and was making these eerie whistles that creeped the hell out of me. he held my hand for a while and told me everything will be ok.. *i was whimpering* in the end, we cuddled. to keep warm, and to console me from the wuss i became (no wait, i’ve always been a wuss)

our hosts woke up and their jaws dropped when they saw us together, cuddled up like kittens (as nicole would put it). it was quite cute, if u actually took pictures of us then..

long story short, we went on a date that nite, and after a few more dates, we became a couple..

it was a slight shock for me at first, as i said, i least expected anything to happen. especially anything that involved having an actual relationship, a bf/gf relationship.

things were moving on nicely

chapter 3

i had to tell my affair something.. esp that fact that i cannot continue havin an affair with him now that i was with someone new.

i was a wuss.. i did it over msn..

i said "there’s something i kinda need to tell you.. don’t really know how to say this, but i’ll just be upfront about it. i’m seeing / dating someone now.. i don’t think he would like it if i’m still sleeping with u.."

he tried being cool, then started to get a little upset. i told him that he was jealous.. territorial, he said..

bickered for a bit, and i just left the conversation. end of that affair. or so i thought…

chapter 4

some of our friends knew that we became a couple. we weren’t about to tell the whole wide world. just a handful of close friends who hang out with us always..

like i said, since i’ve been flinging around, intimacy and such were done in

a) a hurry

b) without feelings or affections

with him, however, i got shy! i can’t believe this! the one where trey calls me promiscuos girl, shy!

but on the other hand, we took our time with intimacy and affection..

trey met him for the first time, told me "not ur usual type…"

not my usual type? what is my usual type? flings? hmmmm *pondering* in more ways than one, he is normal, and yet he’s also been there done that to know what he wants, in most things am sure he’s had his scandals, horrific past.. just as i have or was going through.. who doesn’t?!

chapter 5

the supposed affair has ended, but wasn’t quite on good terms.. i just left it, leaving him to cool down. i still treasure him as a friend.

was talking to him on msn again, and it was slightly awkward. he asked me to help him with one of his jobs.. and slowly the topic moved on to him saying that he’s done this and that. he has changed his tune abit, dropping some habits and getting his life together. it was definitely and improvement

then he drops the bomb, he actually feels very strongly about me.. but unfortunately, he and i both knows that its too late. it was too late for him to tell me.. and then again, i did ask where would we head with the affair that was going on.. we were both not sure..

eventually, i told him, i will only be a friend to support him, but if it means friends with ‘benefits’, it is something that i will not give, as it would be against my belief..

chapter 6

things are still moving along nicely between him and i

it was unexpected, and it’s been sweet.. yes, we’ll have our ups and downs.. but for now, i’m happy.

i’m happy with my man

*don’t laugh!*

001. What shirt are you wearing?
+ red halter from some no name shop, with denim jacket

002. What pair of pants?
+ blue jeans from pdi

003. What color socks?
+ white

004. What shoes do you have on?
+ sneakers from bata

005. What makeup?
+ none

006. What jewelry?
+ none

007. What CD is in your CD player?
+ a cd my man gave me..

008. What are you listening to?
+ dj on hitz fm talking crap

009. Who are you chatting with?
+ my man, my friends

010. What other windows do you have open?
+ ryze

011. What are you eating/drinking?
+ what’s that? can eat wan ar?

012. What are you thinking about?
+ work. too many things to do, and i need to make a phone call

013. What time is it?
+ 4.45pm

014. What room of the house are you in?
+ 3rd bedroom

015. What season is it?
+ humid

016. How are you wearing your hair?
+ long

017. What color are your nails painted?
+ not painted

018. What are the other people in your house doing?
+ their at work, at school

019. What should you really being doing right now?
+ calling someone

020. What song have you been listening to non-stop?
+ sunday morning

021. What will you do tomorrow?
+ chill and spend time with my man..

022. Who do you want to see tomorrow?
+ who else?

023. What do you want to be when you get older?
+ retired

024. Do you want to get married?
+ is that a trick question (yeah, before i’m 30…)

025. Do you want to have kids?
+ hmmmmmmmmmmm, do you have kids?

026. If you could, would you run for president later on?
+ nah.. too much politics spoil the government

027. Where would you like to stay?
+ somewhere alot more laid back and quiet

028. Describe your dream house:
+ beach house

029. When are you getting your next haircut?
+ when it needs trimming

030. When do you plan to go shopping next?
+ what’s that? can eat wan ar?

031. Would you rather die young and beautiful, or
live long and die old?
+ die young and beautiful

032. How would you like to die?
+ quietly

033. What are you looking forward to?
+ sleep

034. What’s the next holiday coming up?
+ deepavali

035. What do you plan on wearing tomorrow?
+ jeans and top

036. What’s tomorrow’s weather going to be like?
+ bright and sunny

037. How old will you be in four years?
+ is that a trick question?

038. What time will you go to bed tonight?
+ depending on what time i finish drinking

039. What day is it tomorrow?
+ saturday

Link: Girls-Only Blogthings - What City Do You Belong In?.

You Belong in London

A little old fashioned, and a little modern. A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock. A unique woman like you needs a city that offers everything. No wonder you and London will get along so well.

Link: Girls-Only Blogthings - What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?.

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise! Heaven knows you’ve had enough practice. That’s why you’re a total pro. If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you. You know how to act in every situation … to make both you and your guy happy.

i’m beginning to wonder if i’m honestly answering the questions or that i just know the ‘right’ answers.. hmmmmm…

Link: Girls-Only Blogthings - Are You More Like Jennifer or Angelina?.

You Are More Like Angelina Jolie

Bad girl with a heart of gold. You are smart, sexy, and strong willed. You aren’t against stealing another girl’s man… If he’s better off with you!